Matchy matchy
It’s true confessions time. I joined match.com this week. Go ahead, commence with the ribbing.
It’s the first time I’ve ever joined an online dating service. It’s been a fascinating experience. I liken it to the Twilight series. Check it out. When I was reading the Twilight books, I would take them with me to a coffee shop and shuttle them quickly from my bag to my lap, shielding the cover from view. I found them entertaining, but I didn’t want anyone else to know that. I’d judged far too many people for reading them. Then, when I decided I wanted to give them a try, I was pretty well ashamed and embarrassed to be seen with the black-covered vampire novels. Seriously, who reads that stuff? Turns out I do.
And so it is with match. I’ve been fortunate enough to find great women throughout my life with relatively little effort. (Don’t give me a hard time about this. It’s not because I’m kick-ass or anything. I just know a lot of people.) I’m not sure I’ve actually ever even dated. Even if the other women were just dating me, I’m pretty sure I’ve moved into full-blown relationship mode. (Yes, I know that in admitting this, I’m throwing up huge warning flags.  Like the rest of my posts make me look sane and stable…) And I’ve been socially active to a ridiculous extent, giving me a zillion acquaintances.  So the idea of wanting to use an online dating service to find people hasn’t made a lot of sense to me. Until recently.
I’ve started meeting a lot of women (offline) who are using online dating sites to meet people. They’re interesting, intelligent women who are using the online sites to broaden their social circle. Not just to date, but to make friends with common interests who they wouldn’t otherwise run into. Finding new groups of people can be hard to do in a community as small and connected as the lesbian community is. And these women are great, which totally blew my perception of who is using dating sites, and why.
I still wasn’t totally comfortable with the idea, so I began the rationalization process. I told myself, “I’m in no place to be dating anyone, but I could end up with some cool friends and maybe even a travel companion or twoâ€. I told myself, “This could be a fascinating social experimentâ€. I told myself, “I could use this as a way to get over my fears around rejectionâ€. But basically, I was totally curious. Who is out there? And how are they using these sites, exactly? And so I started filling out the online profiles, choosing which picture to upload and checking the boxes that define my priorities.
I thought maybe I’d make some interesting realizations in going through the process, but I didn’t expect them to come so quickly. More to come on this, but basically I’ve found myself seriously considering the way I see myself, the way I portray myself to the outside world, the way I see other people, and the way I view relationships on a really fundamental level. So far it’s been flattering, humbling, and absolutely fascinating.
April 12, 2010 1 Comment